I am a self-proclaimed personal growth junkie. I have been reading self help books, going to counseling, doing courses and any number of other alternative healing avenues (some you most certainly have never heard of). I was doing all this because I was carrying a huge amount of shit (forgive my language) with me everywhere I went and I didn’t know what was wrong with me or how to change it.
In April I found yet another course to try. I told myself that if this one didn’t work I was giving up – giving up on trying to be happy, on trying to be positive, energetic, vibrant, beautiful, a good partner, a good mother, a good person, etc. etc. etc. Say what you want, I didn’t think I was any of these things and I was exhausted from trying to be.
In April I tried out the Landmark Forum. I found that this giant pile of shit I was carrying around was preventing me from seeing or being with anyone or anything. I couldn’t be open to new relationships because the shit pile stopped me. I couldn’t be open to anything new or good because the shit pile stopped me. I couldn’t even be with myself happily because the shit pile stopped me. The shit pile was weighing me down big time. I was tired alllll the time (my avoidance tactic). I knew I should be happy for all the things I had in my life and yet I wasn’t – and I would beat myself up about that too by the way.
When I did this course, things changed for me. I transformed into a person who is free! The shit pile is gone. I am a person who is full of vibrant energy! I no longer require daily naps!! (Although I still enjoy them once in a while). Since this course I have re-done two bedrooms in my house including paint, floors, baseboards, and decorating. I did this while working, looking after my three-year-old and doing further Landmark courses (Dad helped also – Thanks Dad!). I am now a person with authenticity and integrity. I am no longer afraid of committing to things. I am a person who is responsible and accountable for all my own “stuff!” This may not seem like a big deal for you, but it was HUGE for me. HUGE!
What I got out of this course was beyond imaginable for me. I got my Self back; the real genuine me. I got closer relationships with family and friends. For the first time in my life I have a relationship with my step-dad (whom I have been avoiding for 20 years). I am also able to allow my child to see her dad and I am able to see him too, without pain or regret or sadness or hurt or loss. The reason I can do that is because through this course I really became aware of how much I love him and how much I want him to have a great life no matter if I am with him or not. For those of you that don’t know me, I had been struggling with the loss of that relationship for the past two years. It is a gianormous weight lifted off me.
Most courses I have done have lasted a month or two and then faded away. This course is designed so that we don’t return into all our old habits (unless we really wish to of course). This one has lasted me since April and I’m still going strong. It made such an obvious difference in my life that my Dad, sister, brother and sister-in-law have now taken it as well.
I invite you now to look at your life. What is working? What isn’t working? If the part that wasn’t working was, how would your life look then? What is it you want? Money? Freedom? A relationship? Success? A new career? Motivation? Who would you be in your life if you had what you wanted? I invite you to come see what is possible for you and your life!
It doesn’t matter to me how amazing my life is, if everyone around me isn’t having an amazing life as well.